Twas the night Before C Day

Twas the night before C day and all through the house all my creatures are stirring.....So it's still February 20, which is a Tuesday night. Tomorrow is Chemo day. Lets rewind a bit. Today is one of my normal-ish days. Yes bone pain is here but the pain medications do take care of the majority of that and it's more of a minor inconvenience by like 4 pm. My son (who has been amazing with this all) is always thinking of me, making sure that I'm OK, and sacrificing for me.

Before the whole go fund me campaign, he decided to help make some money and walk dogs in the complex. He actually made $100 dollars doing it! But by that time I had the campaign set up and I told him he needed to spend his money on him. He worked hard for it. I also had a $50 Victoria Secret Pink gift card from my aunt for Christmas that I had to spend. So I told him...I don't know how long I will last but how about we go to the mall, Electronics store for you (He loves Fry's), and Pink for me. He was so excited. So we had our lunch late (like around 4/430 and I had dinner in the crock-pot for when we got back) and we decided lets go. We did our two stores, He picked up some Sony wireless headphones for when he goes to the gym, and I picked up some spray, lotion, and tons of bath bombs because I am always in achy pain and I cannot STAND taking baths. Literally I feel like I'm having a panic attack in them...it does the total opposite of what it should be doing for me. Maybe bath bombs will help? Who knows? But what I do know is that the bone pain is no fun and the hot tub in the complex has been down for a little over a month so I NEED to figure this out.

When we got home, I didn't want food, I didn't want a shower, I literally just wanted to sleep! I was exhausted. The look on his face made it all worth it. We spent time together and he finally got something he wanted. So I laid in bed hoping tonight would be an early night...but like I said chemo day was the following morning.

Now when I first started with this whole thing I was like..I've GOT this!!! You know...typical Melinda swearing she has everything because clearly...I have a super woman complex (don't we all?). I went in and she gave me a sheet with the side effects that I would most likely get...I'm like "so RUDE, that's not happening to me, I GOT THIS". My doctor is already used to my antics...I mean when she told me I had cancer I told her she was rude...sooooo how was this different? So she introduced me to the nurse and said here's your new best friend. So I said hey bestie...what's on the menu? She pulls out a needle for a blood test, I'm all like....LIARS!!! You're NOT my bestie!!! HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME????? (I'm terrified of needles). My nurse says I was warned you are a comedian and would give me a run for my money. EXCUSE ME??? RUDE!!! So she took my bloods, I waited and was like see chemo is EASY! She said um we just needed to make sure your count was stable. We have the all clear now. So I'm like ok bye! See you next week!!! NOPE! She now has IV bags and two needles. SERIOUSLY bestie is turning into an enemy at this point. I get one in my arm, apparently I am dehydrated (story of my life I suck at drinking water) and I needed benadryl. Im like ummmmmmm benadryl? Why come? So she explains she needs to get me ready for the chemo. Like a pre cocktail. OK...I'm all about Pre gaming before I go out....totally get it. But what was the other needle for? She said that is going into your abdomen. UM??? At this point I'm like how about you make me drink water and give me a pill of benadryl....less needles!! Yes I'm trying to bargain at this point...terrified of needles. Nope...she clearly hates me. SO STUBBORN!

I knocked out because apparently benadryl in your vein does that! I wake up what seems like 2 seconds later (obviously it didn't work...benadryl doesn't put me to bed that quick) but I look at my phone and its 8am. I started at 430am. WHOAH! There comes my so called bestie taking me off of all the needles. I'm like OK lady...what did you do to me? Clearly you can't be trusted! She laughs and says whenever you are ready we will call your car. I had already set it up so that I did an early morning shift of this chemo stuff because I had to be back to get my son ready for his home school classes by 9 am. So I of course thought I needed no time at all stood up and fell right back down...then i threw up. CLEARLY this lady drugged me. So I relaxed for a half hour and was like look I gotta go! So I went home to wake my son up and told him I woke up sick and needed to lay down. Now fast forward to today...I had already done this 13 times before....there is NO reason I shouldn't be used to this right? That girl who was SOOOO ready to fight this thing is GONE. Sheer terror happens before I go in...so I can't sleep but I have no desire to get up and do anything either. So here I am laying in bed getting this blog out the way. Don't get me wrong...I STILL got this...but maybe a little less loud. Hey...at least I get to be forced to sleep when my so called bestie shoots me full of benadryl. Now LETS KICK THIS THING!

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