Friendships

Finding your real friends can be hard! You think you are on top of the world and are surrounded by those who love you. Or are you?

Seriously there was three points in my life that this has happened. I am surrounded by friends all the time who I would give my left boob for and I am sure they love me...then sh$t hits the fan in your life, you turn around and there is only 2 standing there.

When I was younger I had money. I am a generous person and I would treat my group of friends all the time. Then when my money was gone, so were the majority of my friends. It really hurt me. I literally had two friends when it was all said and done. Than I had my son, those were the only ones still there yet again.

When I had my accident, the so called friendships I had built up, that was also hard. I came out with 3 friends at that point. My original two, then one more.

Finally now, my cancer. It is crazy. I have found who my true friends are. I literally have women who I have never met before helping me in my moment of weakness. It is so empowering and so uplifting and has helped me in so many ways to lift my spirits.

As you get older you realize what's more important. You realize that you shouldn't be around people who lack confidence and tear you down. People who tear you down are lacking in their own lives and I feel bad for them. There is enough success for everyone, I am not jealous of people's successes. I will look that them and say dam...she is doing well! That is awesome! Maybe pick her brain a little so that I can improve. But jealous, never. You lift each other up, not tear each other down. Friendships mean so much more.