Food for thought...cancer saved my life

Cancer is saving my life in so many ways. I got a job, I have new friends

, I know who is there for me in life, and I have a new perspective on things.

Yes cancer sucks and so many say F*%$# cancer....I say thanks. I like to go into things with a feeling of gratitude...not despair or discouragement. I feel like getting through the roughest parts in your life can change all in the way you look at them.

I know I have been missing in action for some time. Why? I have been working a graveyard shift, making sure my son graduated the 8th grade, and battling this thing called cancer. The struggles that it has caused I would not deny...but the blessings are much more abundant.

Let me explain. I got this job with Hilton. I love it. I am in sales...im using and honing in on some of my sales techniques. The people here have been so supportive and accepting of me in all of my flaws, in my sickness, in my struggles. I have met some of the best people ever here. I have people that are here for me. I have supervisors who actually care about me and invest in my success. They also don't use my illness against me, instead they support me and even though I am super stubborn and come in to work no matter how I'm feeling any given day, they can see right through me and send me home without any thought to their "numbers" or "sales quotas". I am eternally grateful. I actually look forward to coming in to work. My friends that I met here have a bond. This team is truly a family and I am grateful to be accepted into this family.

I was feeling super down because I felt like I lost so many "friends" and "supporters". In reality, they were never any of that. They were opportunists who only cared about what they could gain in our friendship. They didn't care about me at all. In my times of need many people including those who I truly thought I could count on turned their backs on me, unfriended me, and stopped responding to my messages. But in looking at it from another perspective I can see that I needed to trim the fat. I needed to exfoliate the dead skin from my life and start fresh...with glowing and healthy skin. I am grateful that they turned their backs. Now I can focus on those who matter. Those who are true to me.

See negativity and feeling down on yourself for your circumstances will just make you more sick. It will just cause you more drama, more stress, more chaos. Who wants to live in that world? Not I! Always remember to only focus on things you can control. You can control YOUR emotions, YOUR reactions to others actions, YOUR emotions, YOUR feelings. You can control nothing else. If something happens let it out, then let it go. Think before you react. Do not react right away if you are feeling negatively give yourself time to give the appropriate reaction. Make sure that you treat yourself right. Don't focus on the negativity. Try to see things from others perspectives...did someone do something to you and it turned into a blow out? Why? Because you let it. You allowed yourself to react too soon to their negativity. If you are having a bad day...think...was it really truly a bad day...or a bad moment or moments that you allowed to affect your entire day?